Wednesday, August 17, 2011

I think i hate my family, any advice? Please?

okay i have asked dozen questions like this one but none of the answer was satisfying in any way or shape. I've got this nagging family and i dont know what they want from, especially my mother. I've been going to Middle East since My childhood with my mom and as there is a saying that "too much of everything makes you sick", I've grown sick of it. I'm 17 year old guy but in my birth certificate, its not 17, its 16 and you know the reason for it. My family complains about almost everything I do and I dont know why. They put you down emotionally by every possible way when you dont agree with what they say or what they want u to do. They've never asked ME what I want, all they talk about is what THEY want! Now I have a girl which i like so much and shes a good girl, i've talked to her family and they dont mind at all what me befriending her. Rather, they like me so much that they've offered me becoming my legal gaurdians because i've told them about my family. Dad has got tickets for me and mom to mideast and we'll be leaving on 15. And i tell my mom every single day that i dont wanna go, but instead of doing something about it, she gives me kinda ******* threats that she'll call my uncle if i dont go. Yesterday, she said one phrase which is "i dont want any trouble and u know ur uncle very well" which put me in shock for a moment and was feeling like they control my life! I had a terrible fight with my bro and he beat almost beat the living **** out of me and no body even tried to stop him. They treat him like kings and me like a slave! I dont want to be treated any good by then cuz i dont like them any way. They control my life and when if u resist, they nag u to death. Sometimes they make me their humour which is discouraging. I've had panic attacks, anxiety etc cuz of all this ****! They dont even care how much this affects me and my feelings. The girl with whom in a love relationship, she always says that she can help me get to the states but i reject it everytime, not only her but her bro also told me that and she sometimes doesnt talk to me cuz she says she needs me but i keep rejecting to use avail that opportunity to be with her but i dont want to totally rely on others and im not stable enough to rely on MYSELF and thats what keeps me rejecting it. Even if i move out, i cant survive cuz the outside world has no opportunities for young guys like me and i keep thnking and ill end up sleeping on streets and thats what i dont want. My family puts me down by any way possible but if i move out, ill end up sleeping on streets or relying on others. The only choice i had is that girl's family but i wouldnt like them to help me cuz i dont want to put burden on anyone. I wont talk to my family about how they treat me because it always turns into argueing and they dont listen to what i say. Please any advice? Please! I'd really like to move out if u give me any idea bout it cuz i dont have anythng in my mind. My vacations are like staying in hell! please help and thank you in anticipation for all who read this cuz i thought the details would give u a better idea

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